My World has Flipped Upside Down

I cannot begin to express just how the rebuilding of my life is going.  It’s going well, and it looks nothing like the broken pieces that were strewn about in February.  I still struggle with the flashbacks of my past, but I am making actual changes to embrace my beautiful present and future.  I have…

The Shame of Acceptance

I have a habit of downplaying myself because my life doesn’t look the way I dreamed it would. I haven’t exhaled yet. I keep feeling like I should have a certain loving relationship with my family like the one I had imagined in my mind. The older I got, the pain of “what isn’t” intensified….

The Rain Keeps Falling

It’s been raining a long time, but for the sake of this latest bleeding heart entry, it’s been 30 days.  It was raining when my partner in crime threw me out.  I had no umbrella that night, so it rained literally and figuratively on my world.  The only thing I understand is that my fear…

Decluttering the Mind

I went on an apology spree because this part of the Lord’s Prayer had backfired, “Forgive us of our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us”.  I realized I had unhealthily been blocking myself from moving on by holding grudges.  I remember leaving my friendship with my best friend from high school in…

Putting Me First

I have reached a fork in the road.  One where I could continue on the road I am on, or take the other road and follow my dreams.  My dreams seem impossible.  They seem far and damn near impossible.  When I close my eyes to go to sleep, I can feel my dreams come alive…

Pushing Past “Well….”

What do I mean by pushing past “Well…”?   “Well…” is when I proclaim, “Well at least I’m not out here shooting everybody!”; “Well at least I didn’t eat the whole cake!”; “Well at least I didn’t cuss her all the way out!”.  It means cradling myself with mediocre excuses.   Well is comprised of the…

A Love Letter to Black Men

He is so powerful that he can fill a dry river bed with an encouraging word or smile.  He gives me solice in a tumultuous world and his adoration is priceless. He is a natural leader full of wisdom and guidance.  I am safe with him because he is home.  He is caring, nurturing, and…

Are You Present This Holiday Season?

LB’s Thoughts Budget You are crying right now because the lowest price you’ve seen for a turkey is $40.  Hams are $52 and forget about roast beef or prime rib.  Don’t cry in the grocery store because you saw this day coming months ago.  Raise your hand if you find it tough to stay on…

Today’s Thoughts on Relationships

PA’s thoughts on relationships: Relationships take work regardless of your level of involvement. Let’s face it, we’re all uniquely made. Along with our uniqueness comes the quirks, idiosyncrasies and isms that define who we are. Maybe you don’t like the way your significant other addresses conflict. Maybe you have a relative who only does things…