I’ve made so many life altering decisions in three short months, but my head isn’t spinning. I feel calm, centered, and determined. I had a habit of running all of my ideas past people I respected, and then I’d get easily deterred if they didn’t agree with my viewpoint. I struggled with not feeling understood. I’ve been going to God and listening to the voice within me to make decisions. I may discuss my decisions for input, but I am becoming comfortable with making my own calls. For a along time, I made decisions and did things that I felt others would be impressed with. When they disapproved or became over-critical, my confidence deflated. I am through with looking to other people to feel good about myself. I longed for others’ support and approval. I’ve come to the point where I don’t need anyone to cosign me but God. I actually have started keeping little experiences and lessons to myself. I have started to be my own secret keeper. I don’t need to tell all of my business. I have a right to my own privacy and life. I still respect my friends and mentors, but I am okay with going my own way too. I also believe I have people in my life that support me either way. I don’t mind criticism from a place of love and respect. Today, the sun was shining, and the weekend began. I no longer dread the weekends because I am learning to trust myself.